Today I just feel trapped by the system. I can’t afford to fight for my son the way I want to. I’ve been court ordered to do a psychological evaluation in order to see if I’m “mentally stable” enough to get my son back. After calling around to about 50 different places, I learned the evaluation costs anywhere from $1500 a $3500. Dhs did offer to pay for it. But only if I use their people and on their own time. They mentioned it could be months before I can get in with their person. I want to get an alchohol hair follicle done as well but it costs around $400. I’m also required to live seperately from my family and maintain my own place which is really expensive for just one person. I manage to keep up with all of that somehow, but I can’t afford anything extra. I can barely keep up with my lawyer payments. I’m behind. Over $10,000 has been spent just on attorney fees in my case. If I made more money I could pay for extra things to prove I’m a fit parent. But I can’t. So I’m stuck waiting on the system to do it’s job month after month while I only see my child once a week for an hour.